Thursday, June 02, 2005
God,
I dont know why am I feeling so bad right now
My entire trip is cancelled
You know why
I felt nothing but numbness
I didn't lied for my own sake
I felt as if I'm being thrown to somewhere that I'm so unfamiliar
Blames, guilt-treat, fake endurance.. so much so much
Made me blind and
I do not know how to react
I thought we are supposed to share the happiness and sorrows
All I hear is "You brought yourself upon all this shit..."
All the pain and blames suppressing me
What you want me to do?
My tears can't flow and hurt much more within.
I need a shoulder to lean on
Is it going to his?
Is he going to be there cos i asked him to? or for that he cared?
Sorry I lied and brought upon all these
Not for my own sake

God, be there for me always. I need to rest my mind, spare me from the pain i get. I pray that things will get better. Only if it will. Amen

-left alone-


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